I had to release. Tears came flowing from my eyes. My emotions running crazy. How long will this last? I thought to myself. I work two jobs. I go to school 24 hrs a week. I miss my kids terribly. I'm frustrated. I'm tired. I'm mad. But then I think, I'm bigger than this. I'm stronger than this and if it's becoming overwhelming, then maybe I'm carrying too much of the weight. How about I shift a lot more of the load over to Lord. He won't mind.
Sometimes I feel alone. I feel like I'm by myself, trying to make a better future for me and my daughters. Then I open my eyes wider and say 'Hey girl, what's this I hear? You're not trying to give up are you? What are the consequences of giving up now? All that you put in and went through thus far, was it in vain? Were you just foolin' around and waisting time or do you have something to accomplish? I'm just wondering. Because the woman I know is not a quitter! The woman I know is a straight up warrior! Ah Ha! Where's your armor Warrior Princess? Are you wearing your helmet of salvation? Protect yourself with the shield of faith. And by any means necessary do not lay down your sword of the Spirit which is the word of God. What's that you say? You are busy! Too busy to prepare for battle? Well that's the kind of thinking that has actually started this so call release anyway. Rethink the way you are going about this. Get in touch with the One whose really in control. Put on your armour and stop roaming around unprotected like your adversary is not lurking around seeking whom he may devour. This war is not over. FIGHT! There's a victory waiting to be won.
After that. I needed a hug.
Now I'm motivated again. I'm ready! CHARGE!
Thanks self. I needed that.